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Learn to be small

Great God and Heavenly Father,

I need to learn to be small. Realise how Sovereign you are. Come to you humbled and weak.
You say “My grace is sufficient for you, my power is made perfect in weakness”. You don’t say you’ll make me strong so that I can cope with life on my own. You don’t say you’ll make me the hero in this story. Yet how often I strive to be strong. How often I try to be the hero. To juggle commitments because I can’t let people down. To carry burdens, worry and stress. A racing mind hindering sleep. Whose playing god here? Whose life is mine revolving around?

Your grace is sufficient. And grace is daily. Your power is made perfect in weakness. I need to stop thinking I’ll get to a place where I’ve “arrived”. A place where I’ve learnt the lesson that will set me up for life. What would that look like? Self-sufficiency? I would need you less? You are the living Creator God! I am dependent upon you not just until I learn some lesson, but I am dependent upon you always!! Every moment!! Every breath. The moment I think otherwise is the moment, I belittle you and act in pride. The greatest danger is to see you as smaller than you really are.

What I need, Lord, is for my heart to have a greater grasp of You.

Behold your God!

The weak vessels you used in the bible were never prepared for their task because they were gifted, or wise, or strong. In fact the moment they thought they were, they crumbled. They were prepared by a revelation of you through your Word. You spoke and fear of inadequacy was replaced by fear of you. You spoke, and pride was shattered. You spoke and commanded not ability but obedience. You spoke and assured your servants not of greatness but of your presence.

All my false confidences, my masks, my appearances…I throw in disgust at your feet. Your word exposes every motive in my heart. It exposes the deep things of the soul. And it comforts. It equips. It enables.

Isaiah 66:2 “Has not my hand made all these things, and so they came into being?” declares the LORD. “These are the ones I look on with favor: those who are humble and contrite in spirit, and who tremble at my word”

I need to learn to be small again.


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